Its wierd, I know you don't give a shit, but I still think about you, and care about you. The feelings not mutual but I'm alright with that, You'll feel bad sooner or later, I know you've got a heart.

Loosing a love one is probably the worst thing you could possibly deal with, considering the fact its like, a part of you is gone.
Its wierd, because Ive really come to realize that.. I've kinda shut myself out to alot of people... kinda. I mean, I love three people in my life, the most, and its My mother, My brother, and Jess. I have alot of friends, but after my dad dieing, and nick being a huge part of my life, then just kinding falling out of it, (believe it or not it hurt more than alot of people think.) Its hard to actually love someone.
I had a dream that Jess left me, for good and I woke up crying to her. But I told my mom about it and she told me she has dreams of Enrique leaving her all the time, So its just being scared of loosing someone you love.
Just sucks so bad, that I can't really open up to people like I do to Jess, but in a way it's a kind of a good thing, because there aren't really many people you can trust anymore.

Tonight, my mom told me "I think before you try to get in a real relationship, You should be completely happy with yourself"
I guess you could say shes completely right, but for me to be completely happy with myself, will probably take more than a long time.

Is it bad that I'm laughing? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ?

No heart, what so ever. I thought I was heartless. It's pathetic and immature, and completely uncalled for.
I havent been called that since my dad was alive, Thanks for bringin' that back.

Oh and girls with morals sweetie, have a reason to be bitter. Because most of them get dicked over by people like you.

Eh, I don't really know why I was that upset this morning, It wasn't worth crying over. The things he said makes me entire look on him differently, being friends for a while or not. Hes not a good person, and to think I thought I actually fell for someone like that, both makes me laugh, and makes me really pissed off. Its okay though, its not like it was going anywhere anyway.

MAIN GOAL : DONT LET YOUR GUARD DOWN TO GUYS UNTIL YOU KNOW FOR A FACT THEYRE COMPLETELY INTO AND ALL FOR YOU