I feel alot better now that my moms home you don't even know. But my brother is deffinately coming over, and my mom told me the only thing she wants for mother's day is for us to be civil.... yeah............

I've been laying in bed, all day. Miserable. Miserable. MISeRABLE. I've been crying. I miss my Dad. I miss him so much. 3 years is too long without having him. I think I might have to see my brother today, I hate him. No one cares. I have no one to talk to. I need help. I'm hot. And at this point in time I wish I was fucked up on God knows what. Maybe I'm getting my period, I don't know. I just wish everything was perfect and everything was okay. But I'm not happy, nothing comes easy for me, ever. I was happy a little less than a month ago. But it's obvious people change quickly. I'm not happy. In any way shape or form. My mom's not even home for mother's day.

I haven't updated in so long. I'm miserable absolutely miserable. I'm not happy like I used to be thats for sure. I didn't know you talked bad about someone your apparently in love with but, thats okay right? I didn't know it was alright to be disrespectful to someone your in love with, but that's okay right? I totally just realized something as well. I'm not writing it on here just because it's public. But I'm off the wall about it
Thank God today is mother's day, because I don't feel like leaving the house, I just want to sit and read and cry.

Why can't every thing just go perfectly