Sunday, May 10, 2009
I've been laying in bed, all day. Miserable. Miserable. MISeRABLE. I've been crying. I miss my Dad. I miss him so much. 3 years is too long without having him. I think I might have to see my brother today, I hate him. No one cares. I have no one to talk to. I need help. I'm hot. And at this point in time I wish I was fucked up on God knows what. Maybe I'm getting my period, I don't know. I just wish everything was perfect and everything was okay. But I'm not happy, nothing comes easy for me, ever. I was happy a little less than a month ago. But it's obvious people change quickly. I'm not happy. In any way shape or form. My mom's not even home for mother's day.
I haven't updated in so long. I'm miserable absolutely miserable. I'm not happy like I used to be thats for sure. I didn't know you talked bad about someone your apparently in love with but, thats okay right? I didn't know it was alright to be disrespectful to someone your in love with, but that's okay right? I totally just realized something as well. I'm not writing it on here just because it's public. But I'm off the wall about it
Thank God today is mother's day, because I don't feel like leaving the house, I just want to sit and read and cry.
Why can't every thing just go perfectly
Thank God today is mother's day, because I don't feel like leaving the house, I just want to sit and read and cry.
Why can't every thing just go perfectly
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Well, It's 6:25, and the truth is I woke up thinking about it, at 5:50. YOU really did like me, What guy would wanna spend every night on the phone with a girl who lives far away, that youll never see, what guy wouldn't read all my surveys about him and not like me? I think the only reason you hurt me like you did is because you needed to get rid of me, fast. But you insisted on making it a bigger deal than it should have been, you could have just told me.
I don't know maybe I'm completely wrong, I considered him maybe being completely insane, (a conclusion I do not doubt at all) I've considered a bunch of things.
But truth is I'm utterly and completely happy with Steve and I wouldn't trade him for one thing in the world even if it was a life supply of authentic Chanel stuff, oh thatd be wonderful, but its true.
I don't know maybe I'm completely wrong, I considered him maybe being completely insane, (a conclusion I do not doubt at all) I've considered a bunch of things.
But truth is I'm utterly and completely happy with Steve and I wouldn't trade him for one thing in the world even if it was a life supply of authentic Chanel stuff, oh thatd be wonderful, but its true.
Monday, April 20, 2009
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